Depression

[Bubba McBrewski]

I've aparently been fighting it for quite some time. I went walking one Sunday morning, and wound-up miles away and wondering why I was there - I wasn't even sure how I got where I was. I wanted to find a place to disappear.

I just spent a week in the hospital for it. I've been hiding behind a false mask, so no one, even people I see every day, knew it. I am now undergoing counseling and taking medication. I'm feeling better than I have in quite some time, and realize just how many people really care about me. The guy in the mirror is much more likeable than he's been in a long while. It's been a tough 5 years, but the future looks better and brighter.

Thanks for being my friends.

[Chief]

yeah depression sucks , I know how you feel.

Hopefully you get better

[phillyspurslover]

Originally Posted by Bubba McBrewski

Thanks for being my friends.

Thanks for letting us in and being our friend Bubba...

[Bubba McBrewski]

Originally Posted by MomBear

Thanks for letting us in and being our friend Bubba...

[JamesR]

Originally Posted by MomBear

Thanks for letting us in and being our friend Bubba...

Glad to see you are getting help man, we know you can pull through it.

[DizzG]

depression is hard

both me and my wife suffer from it

I used to to take meds but not now...my wife does now.

[Spurs|ATX|]

[Bubba McBrewski]

I never admitted to myself I had a problem, maybe I didn't even realize I had one. But now I have and I feel better - I also recognize just how I was playing things, how I had been feeling, and just how screwed-up I was. Now I'm just weird - just like I used to be...

Good to hear that bubba...

[FREE BEER]

I used to get extremely depressed and have massive panic attacks to the point that I literally thought I was dying. I wrote letters and I would lay down on my bed so that I would look as if I died peacefully ( Creepy, I know). However after I would come back to reality I would become severely depressed. I went to the doctor and he prescribed meds. They just seemed to make me concentrate a lot harder on things. I would feel good and then everything would start over again. Panic attacks and depression.

This went on for a good 10 years of my life.

One day, 4 years ago, I was watching TV and drinking a Diet Coke when my inquiring mind decided to see what was in a Diet Coke. I saw a word on the can that I had heard bad things about and it was ASPARTAME.

I googled it and I found that I was suffering from long term side effects of aspartame. I had been drinking Diet Coke for a large chunk of my life. Anyway, I was baffled at all of the symptoms that I could relate to. Erratic heart beats, panic attacks, dizziness and depression. I immediately stopped drinking Diet Coke and I started watching out for products that have aspartame.

I have not been depressed/sad, had panic attacks or felt like I was gonna fall over in the middle of a conversation in nearly 4 years now.

I am encouraging yall to limit your intake of this nasty substance. Its killing you.

[RichB]

Originally Posted by DizzG

I used to to take meds but not now...my wife does now.

I know you didn't mean that to be funny, but it came out kinds like a joke.

I feel for ya Bubba. Hang in there.

I know from personal experience that this is a great place to escape and get away from your problems for awhile.

Good luck to ya.

[DizzG]

Bubba

if you need to talk or anything let me know

We know each other and I know what your going through...glad your better!

[Spurs21 Cowboys21]

I might only be 20, but I’ve gone through my fair share of hard times. It’s not easy being happy all the time, but it’s certainly not worth being depressed. I wish I could help you in any way possible. Please allow me to lend some words of advice….

To break out of your depression, you have to completely have a change in mindset. It’s not easy, but the more you work towards it, the better off you’ll be. Start with little things that are positive and joyous. It won’t take you out of your depression right away. In the long run, though, you’ll start looking at bigger things that bring upon happiness and make the depressing things less important.

1. Love: polar opposite of fear, best feeling in the world… look towards those that you love
2. Optimism: (the most important IMO) when things look down on you and nothing is going right, just remember that the lesson you learn from it will be far greater than the minor suffering you are currently in… look for the good stuff, forget the bad
3. Security: nothing lasts over time… like who you are
4. Altruism: gives you a purpose… gets you outside yourself
5. Perspective: realize what a small problem is and what a big problem is… not everything is as big as it may seem
6. Humor: laugh things off

Always keep in mind that human emotions are normal. Your mood will change from day to day, but look over the long haul and realize your problem today won’t even be remembered a month from now (putting things in perspective).

Most importantly, smile. Look at the world as it is. Look at your life. Just smile at it all.

I wish you nothing but the best as you fight through this. Keep fighting the good fight.

~Tristen

[curiousspirit]

Don't know you Bubba but I do know depression. Meds can help. Friends and family help just as much or more. Please remember to never give up.

[SoupIsGood]

Hang in there man. Things can and WILL get better.


I was actually depressed for about a year, a year or two back. I really had no reason to be, life was pretty decent for me. It just seemed like there was another person in my head, telling me to end it all, that I'm worthless, that no one likes me, etc. It really is terrorizing and I f#cked up a lot of my life in the process.

In the end though, it couldn't break the bonds I had formed with those who truley care about me. They never knew it, but thanks to their care and love, I eventually learned to ignore the little person in my head who hated myself, and now I'm having the absolute time of my life. Everything just rocks right now, and it just proved to me that life is largely what you make of it, and very little what actually happens to you.


Anyway, hang in there, and depend on those that love you. It wasn't till I realized that I wasn't alone, not enough close to being alone, that things got better. Best of luck man.


(This is actually the first time I've mentioned that to anyone besides.... myself)

[Spurs21 Cowboys21]

I swear Soup, if you ever get depressed again.... I'm sticking a stalk of corn up your ass.

Bubba, I forgot to mention... find someone who makes you laugh. They'll change your life around quickly.

[RichB]

Originally Posted by SoupIsGood

Hang in there man. Things can and WILL get better.


I was actually depressed for about a year, a year or two back. I really had no reason to be, life was pretty decent for me. It just seemed like there was another person in my head, telling me to end it all, that I'm worthless, that no one likes me, etc. It really is terrorizing and I f#cked up a lot of my life in the process.

In the end though, it couldn't break the bonds I had formed with those who truley care about me. They never knew it, but thanks to their care and love, I eventually learned to ignore the little person in my head who hated myself, and now I'm having the absolute time of my life. Everything just rocks right now, and it just proved to me that life is largely what you make of it, and very little what actually happens to you.


Anyway, hang in there, and depend on those that love you. It wasn't till I realized that I wasn't alone, not enough close to being alone, that things got better. Best of luck man.


(This is actually the first time I've mentioned that to anyone besides.... myself)

Glad to hear you're doing better buddy.

[Bubba McBrewski]

Thanks for the advice, everyone. I am so much more aware of what I was up against, now that I have accepted the fact that I ws hiding what I was feeling. I was looking for a way out. I liken my feelings to those of an old alpha wolf, no longer able to lead the pack, wandering off into the forest to die. The day I ended up in Dallas, I believe I was looking for the means to my own end. Thank God for friends and family who care.

Originally Posted by Spurs21 Cowboys21

I swear Soup, if you ever get depressed again.... I'm sticking a stalk of corn up your ass.

Geezus! That just made me spew orange juice all over my desk!

Originally Posted by Spurs21 Cowboys21

Bubba, I forgot to mention... find someone who makes you laugh. They'll change your life around quickly.

I have always had plenty of those - I just wasn't really feeling the laughter, at least not in quite a while. I will from now on.

[SoupIsGood]

Originally Posted by Spurs21 Cowboys21

I swear Soup, if you ever get depressed again.... I'm sticking a stalk of corn up your ass.

Great, I'll ty to remember that. Kinky crop-sex always cheers me right up.